Mother's Day - another 'first', a different 'hard' 💜

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Mother's Day - another 'first', a different 'hard' 💜

If I could have one wish in the world, that would be to see you. I would do anything to give you a hug, buy you lunch, laugh with you, thank you for all the things I should have thanked you for, and most importantly tell you that ‘I Love You’.

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Some days just suck 💜

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Some days just suck 💜

I often wonder how it could possibly be more than 7 months since we lost you. It feels like only yesterday when a stranger rang with news that would shatter my world but it feels like an eternity since I heard you answer the phone with ‘Hello Love’.

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It's that time of year, Christmas 🎄

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It's that time of year, Christmas 🎄

It’s the 25th of November today and you know what that means, it’s Christmas decoration time in our house 🎄 It doesn’t feel right though; carols should be playing, champagne should be flowing and I should be on the phone with you.

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I miss you so much 💜

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I miss you so much 💜

This week has been a rollercoaster, a rollercoaster of emotions! I don’t know why, it’s just been hard, really hard. I’m tired, coming down from the trip to the UK, I don’t know why; it’s just been one of those weeks.

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Happy Birthday, the first without 😢

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Happy Birthday, the first without 😢

You have no idea how much I wish I was sitting with you at Oakden right now. You in your chair, playing on your iPad; me on the sofa, playing on my phone. We could talk if we wanted to but otherwise happy in each other’s company.

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The Disappearing Hug Dream 😢💜

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The Disappearing Hug Dream 😢💜

Often they are so vivid, that I have to get up and break my sleep. You know the types of dreams, we talked about them many times. Most of them I cannot remember but there is one that continually repeats itself, I’ve named it the ‘Disappearing Hug Dream’.

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A Life Remembered - A Time of Reflection

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A Life Remembered - A Time of Reflection

This was the slideshow I made for your funeral. I didn’t want it to be 100’s of photos on a USB key - you deserve better than that-, I think you would have been proud. The photos don’t do you justice but they make me smile (and cry).

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23 Long Days (since we last said goodbye)

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23 Long Days (since we last said goodbye)

My heart is shattered, into millions of pieces. I have shed a million tears, I will shed millions more. I’m petrified of forgetting the smallest detail of the years that have past, I don’t want to forget anything. I miss you so much.

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